other than having a fever during xmas last yr, i cant quite rmb wat i did for the xmas for the previous yrs. this yr, rather, quite different than usual i think, i had an exhausting bbq....and got home at around almost 2 in the morning....which i havnt been this late this entire yr....so tired i fell asleep on the sofa coz i couldnt go straight to bed when siu hau needed her 'little freedom' for having been locked in the cage for almost 12 hrs while her mom went out and tried to hv some fun....... until i woke up at 3am....remembering i still needed to wash my face and brush my teeth...and also needed to feed my naughty but cute baby dog. i guess i should've known that puppies need lots of attention and its my choice and i just hv to suck it up. and its been almost 2 mths. nothing is easy to accomplish and when it is, ur not gonna treasure it . maybe im too easy for someone either, is that why i get this comment from him? i miss my TO days...huge christmas tree at home, exchange gifts, open gifts on boxing day.... celebrating xmas in hk is quite different, culture wise diff i guess....when i used to celebrate holidays in TO i wish i could do that in HK...so...again..its a choice of my own, i shouldnt mourn about it.... i was looking at my Lo por jai's facebook pics, i could see she was having so much fun over there with her symbolic lovely and sweet smile. i miss her. i wish i could be the one whose taking pics with her. i wish i could be in her life too. and hers in mine too. too much thoughts in my mind lately, and im forcing myself to grow at the same time too. certain things simply conquer my brain. i cant even think straight and i need to stop myself before anythings' too late. only 4 or 5 more days til another new yr....time flies and wat hv i achieved so far?! | 
